For Sierra

The book kept opening to one page. I wanted to skip it. I knew all about that meditation. The one and only I found impossible to execute. Metta meditation. You meditate for others but in order to start, you have to meditate for yourself first... A though thing to do.

But I need to do it. I need to do it because I am obsessed about a 24-year-old-girl. Stage 4B cervical cancer. She just had her 27th chemo session yesterday. I can't imagine what that is like. I don't want to imagine what that is like. I am afraid of 8 chemo sessions. She is having 28.

I'll do Metta meditation. I'll do it for her. I'll do It for us.

"On mani padme hum."
                             - mantra of Chenrezig, Buddah of Compassion.
{ Chapter Nine } Metta Meditation: Suddenly you are no longer a struggling, isolares being; you are one with humanity. And as you send blessings, you become a divine conduit. You are immediately plugged back into God as your own abundant source."
                                                        - Outrageous Openness, Tosha Silver