I came to this spot the week before I started cancer treatment.
I left work and parked my car. I sat on a bench and watched the waters rushing by like my mind. Everything was up in the air. What would it be like? How would I feel? Would it be effective? Would I make it?
I could do nothing about it but to go in. Neck deep. And then eventually let go completely. Dive in. Treatment was full on. All I could do was navigate the waters of side effects, procedure, doses, medications and try to stay afloat. Waters rushed by, until it stopped.
This week became this pause. Unplanned closing time. The waters are now still. Like a mirror. Reflection of myself. Last appointment with specialists. You are done. All I can see now is the sky.